past is a past

This is going to be my first post I'm excited.

YOUR PAST MAKES YOU. AND YOUR FUTURE DEFINES YOU.

I will start off telling you about things that went on in my past. I didn't grow up in a christian home and i grew up with a lot of bad influences. By the time I was 10 years old I was drinking, stealing, using foul language, and not listening to authority. I was abused physically and verbally in my past. I have been homeless and i have lived in 9 different homes and apartments. Growing up I didn't know what love was because i had never seen it. My dad died when I was 14 and I have also lost other family and friends to death. I have been over-weight had low self-esteem and hated myself.
That's a brief part of my past. I know what your thinking after reading that, wow why does this kid believe in God now. well its because I learned where the real true love was, it was in God. I have learned to forgive myself for past things and let things go. I had to realize that even though those things happened that is not who i am. You have to realize things will happen and you shouldn't beat yourself up over those things. They will bring you down and make you depressed. I live by this quote "your past makes you but your future defines you". Do not view every bad thing that happened in your past as a bad thing for it has molded you into a person that is going to reach someone or even a group of people. Use that blessing in disguise to help that person that is going through the same thing that you were going through.

Has something happened to you that you cant explain or you wished would have never happen. Well welcome to the world because you are not alone. I didn't know why I had to be abused, I didn't know why my dad had to die when I barely knew him, and i don't know why my life had to happened the way it did but if it hadn't happened the way it did I wouldn't be the man I am today and that is a follower of God. God has blessed me with a testimony to help people know how to handle obstacles in there lives. He has molded me into something awesome.


You know what he has molded you into something awesome as well you just have to forgive yourself of your past and let God work FULLY in your heart and work though you. Use your testimony and speak up, let your voice be heard for you are the voice of God to his people.

So repeat after me: MY PAST IS NOT WHO I AM. MY FUTURE IS. I WILL NOT LIVE IN MY PAST OR THINK JUST BECAUSE I DID THAT OR THIS HAPPENED THAT THIS IS WHO I AM. I AM A CHILD OF GOD AND I FORGIVE MYSELF. AMEN

If you believe that. Go and share things you have never shared with anyone to someone you trust. cry together and just let it go. you owe it to yourself. Then start sharing and using your story to help people.

Do not hide your true self. Don't be a closed book in this world. Be open and talk about things for that is how you truly forgive yourself of your past. Remember your past that which is your testimony is your strongest sword to reach the unreached or to encourage someone is going through something you went through, next to the bible. So forgive yourself and be that light the you were meant to be for God.


words from Apostle Paul:

"But one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus" - Philippians 3:14

If the Apostle Paul- who had persecuted the church and been personally responsible for the deaths of many believers - could forgive himself, If he could forgive himself and press forward for Christ. Then I believe strongly that you can to. I hope you got something out of this blog.
write me your feelings about it or any questions you have about forgiving yourself and letting go. Or if you want me to write on another topic.

Thank you for reading my very first blog. I will be writing another one tomorrow. Send me any ideas :)

Thank you again.
Gods follower